I am a product of
every person that I have ever met. I am my father’s selflessness and my
mother’s kindness. I am my high school history teacher’s thirst for knowledge
and my best friend’s witty humor. I firmly believe that everyone I have met and
everyone I will meet plays a part in shaping who I am, and I look at every day
as a chance to meet new people and continue to define myself through my
interactions with them. Before coming to college, many of the people that I met
were like me- middle class, suburban, mainly white- and although I don’t want
to minimize the impact that all of them have had on shaping me, I also believe
that coming to college opened me up to a brand new pool of people just waiting
to leave their mark on my identity. That is what drew me to this class- the
emphasis on interaction and the power of storytelling in forging relationships
and impacting change not just in ourselves, but in each other, and in our
community. I feel that through this class I have met people who have allowed me
to continue to grow and change, and develop my own definition of civic
engagement.
Obviously my
engagement group played a huge part in my growth throughout the semester. Through
our open and honest conversations I found that we were able to grow together as
people and learn things about each other and ourselves through the process. Terrion
is unlike anyone I have ever met. She is smart, outspoken, and incredibly wise.
She taught me so much in our short time together and the wisdom she instilled
in me will stay with me for a very long time. The most crucial lesson that I
learned from her is that you cannot plan your life. Whatever your “Plan A” is,
you also need plans B,C,D,E,F and G, because nothing is going to go the way you
planned. Emma is diligent and hard working and I admire her motivation to
succeed. Although we are so different we are also alike in so many ways and
through this class I have come to treasure her as a friend. Through the process
of our engagement, I made sure to be open and honest with my partners, and
provide them with the same care and attention that I expected to receive. It is
not easy to share explicit details about your life and your experiences with
strangers, but as the experience progressed I feel that Terrion and Emma became
more than just my group partners, they became my friends. I felt comfortable
telling them things that I couldn’t necessarily go to my friends about, and I
found over time that our meetings became somewhat therapeutic.
I believe that
this experience of sharing stories has been the most impactful act of civic
engagement that I have completed to date and has worked to transform my ideas
about civic engagement as a whole. As Marshall Ganz so eloquently puts it in
his article “Why Stories Matter”, “The story of now is realizing, after the
sharing of values and aspirations, that the world out there is not as it ought
to be. Instead, it is as it is. And that is a challenge to us. We need to
appreciate the challenge and the conflict between the values by which we wish
the world lived and the values by which it actually does.” (Ganz, 2009) Through
using stories as a method of engagement, I have come to realize how we can work
to engage with people, rather than serve them, and work together to recognize
flaws within our society in order to begin to impact social change. That is
what was and continues to be so compelling to me through this class- the idea
in order to truly participate in civic engagement you have to do just that-
engage. Once I fully engaged in my interactions with my group members I feel
that I was able to truly appreciate the experience and finally understand the
importance of civic engagement.
Overall, I was
incredibly proud of the final product that my group produced. I think that our
collaborative work not only reflected who each of us are as people, but the
joint nature of our poems also allowed us to show how we have grown together
over the past few months. I also find it interesting that we chose to use the
topic that we had discussed in our first meeting as a group- I liked seeing how
everything came full circle and they very fist topic we discussed became the
focus of our final presentation. The performance also allowed us to share some
of what we had discussed in our group meetings with the class as a whole, and I
find that level of personal sharing to be incredibly special. I feel much
closer to everyone in the class following our presentations, and it is my hope
that they feel the same way towards me.
My civic
engagement journey is just beginning, and while I know that this experience has
given me the building blocks to continue to grow and change, I look forward to
future experiences that will allow me to further engage and meet more people
that will continue to advance my growth in the same way that this experience
has. Had it not been for this class, I probably would have never spoken to either
of the women in my engagement group, but through our interactions and the work
that we did together, they have both left a lasting impact on me, a handprint
on my identity, and it is my belief that that is what defines civic engagement-
experiences that define you and shape you and make you different. People you
meet that take who you are and what you think you know and change it and
transform it until you come out a different person than you were when the
experience began. That’s how I
understand civic engagement now and although I’m sure my view will change as my
journey continues, I’d say it’s a pretty good place to start.